All in my lonesome
Monday, July 13
Yesterday my mother drove up to our family in Stockholm, and took the dog with her. They will be gone for about two weeks and I'll be all alone in the apartement until then. I'm planning to escape for a while to my friend in Karlskrona.
I'd forgotten what it's like to be home alone. What I find most strange is actually that the dog is gone. Not hearing her claws and paws. Not seeing her lying on the floor, and then the next second she's lying somewhere else. Looking up at me and wagging her tail. Not hearing her barking at the people in the stairwell, forcing me to get up and correct her behaviour. She has become a part of our lives so quickly that it feels as it has always been her, me and mom. "Us girls" mom says. I love them both so much I don't know what I would do without them. I don't know if I dare move away in the fall, but I'm considering it. For my studies sake. Somehow though, it feels as I'm abandoning them if I leave, and I have a feeling that mom feels the same. Which makes it harder to consider leaving.
Ta-ta
Cactus Flower
14 July 2009 15:13
Where are you going to move? Thought you were gonna study in Lund..?
15 July 2009 01:44
She might study in Umeå :) I can't say that I understand your abandonment feelings, I feel rather as if they can't wait for me to move out xD Anyhow, that flat hasn't been completely quiet since Elsa moved in so I can understand it must feel very empty without her...
15 July 2009 21:37
Hello Kasja!
That must be tough, living with them your whole life when you've kinda been "the 3 Musketeers", haha. I think though, that your mom would understand because independence and education are two things that get people very far in life. But maybe a commuting system at home would work as well. I hope you figure it out! I also awarded you something on my blog :)
peace&love,
nicole.
18 July 2009 13:07
Re Tiffany: It's a bit uncertain right now, because I really want to read Literature and not history.
Re Elin: Yeah, but you're the first born and I'm the youngest. Besides, the real reason is that Mom moved here because of me, and if I move to Umeå I will leave where we moved together without the rest of the family. She doesn't feel that home here, so therefore I think she'll feel abandoned by me if I move.
Re Nicole: Not really my whole life, only three years (I have two older siblings), and we got Elsa (the dog) last fall. But yeah, we've got used to living together all three. Haha, "the three Musketeers" indeed.
20 July 2009 13:56
Hi! Personally I wouldn't mind at all if you moved to Umeå for a year or so... ;) But nevertheless, I don't think there's cause for your worries. Mom's considering moving to Stockholm either way, and it WAS her choice to move to Malmö with you. She won't feel bad about moving to S without you, so you shouldn't feel bad about moving away either! Enjoy the summer together (when she gets home) and plan your fall according to what's best for your studies!
Love, Erika